I saw a dilemma.
To make a short summary of my situation, my life is separated into two worlds for me are quite distinct. The world of the city where I live, work and the world of the North, or I go down four days a week to relax me and make fun of my resources. For me, I can imagine that someone from the city between my world in the north but I have trouble with reverse, and that's where my dilemma is created.
These two worlds are so different. Without removing anything no, the world city is more superficial. Everything goes fast, job boards, a mere 5 to 7, cleaning, washing etc ... Quick, quick, quick! If we go out, it is seen, must be beautiful, must please. While in the north, everything is relaxed. People are more friendly. Everyone knows each other and all go out on Saturday was the only nightclub in the village. The world greeted me from the corner as the girl who comes to town every two weeks and we do the party without asking any question. What I think would be harder for someone from the north to the town. Initially, I knew a couple friends, but all their friends welcomed me and now I can go out alone in the village and to party with friends of friends ...
But they are living in a closed world. I love to laugh with them by treating them as co-blood because there is not a week or I am presenting a new cousin or a cousin or another. But the problem is for relationships. They come with all the northern world and created me one time you do a tour soon. And me I get in there!
Guys see me as an exit. Finally renewal. But I do not want a long distance relationship and certainly not home in the north. For now, I go every two weeks because I want to but if I have anything in town, I do not want to feel require assembling.
I'm mixed. A guy here do not hide to make me feel how he feels about me. At first I was very closed, but I'm fine with it. We had a super great weekend but every time we are away when I leave for the city. Yesterday was worse! We had a great day and the evening ended in front of the TV with a small fire. It was just right and I was wondering ... no questions But I have ripped the heart. For him it was too ... He found it too hard knowing that I do not want a relationship here.
I am with him ... What to do? Remove my barrièeres and try? Delete my selection criteria? This guy is not at all like the guy who normally attracts me ... Is it because it's time I try to get out of my comfort zone? Is what I hate in selfish because I need to feel desired and I feel it when he asks me about me? Is what I play with his emotions to feel better?
One thing I know is that it hurts me to have maybe lost a friend ...
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